Where You Are

Cast Your Light on my path, dear Lord,
That I may find You where You are,
Not where I wish You to be.
Take my hand and lead me
That I may not wander away
And lose You for even a moment
Ever again.

My Hand is here; take ahold of it,
For it is what I deeply desire.
My hand is wounded, pierced through, for love.
Will your tender hand join with My Wounded Hand?
Will you not turn away in pain and fear
If I share with you My Heart that suffers still
Or My Body that is wounded still?

When you draw back in fear
I am left so alone, abandoned again,
Hungering for one who would stay
And share intimately the sorrows and pains
Of my tender Heart of Love.
Will you take this Wounded Hand
And share this Wounded Heart?

Do not let go of my hand that is Yours,
For I desire most deeply all You are.
Hold me here tightly with You
In Your joys and Your sorrows, my Beloved.
For it is where I desire to be, always.
In Your Heart that I adore.

7-30-2002

Child Of My Heart

Child of My Heart, it is I,
The God of your longing,
Moving silently upon your heart.
Your thoughts so often fall upon Me
It arouses My Heart
To seek your embrace.
You can feel My Heart
Overcoming yours,
So tenderly, so quietly.

Like the whisper of the wind
I am upon you.
Yet like the embrace
Of long-separated lovers,
I hold fast to your heart.
As I come upon you,
You stir to meet My Love
As our hearts become one
In the grasp of longed-for love.

Your face, my Beloved,
I see in all I encounter.
The beauty and immensity of Your gifts
Overwhelms me.
Your Heart is there
Beating in the massive, powerful mountains,
Your breath in the breeze through the trees,
Your sweet fragrance is carried on the wind
To stir me to love You every moment,
To always know You are near.
You touch me in the warmth of the sun.
How can I be without You?
For You stir my soul to love You always
And for this Love I surrender all I am.

7/23-24/2002
Yosemite

Tender Wounds

O Heart of Mercy
That captures my soul,
Break open my heart
Sending Your Spirit
Like shivering Fire
Into my soul.

O Wounded Lord,
Your Wounds melt my soul.
They pierce my heart,
Then carry it off into You.
My heart melts down
In the presence of
Your sweetest Wounds
And Your overwhelming desire
For my heart.

The tender strength
Of Your hand upon mine
Touched all that I am.
I gaze upon the deep cavern,
Baring bones, ripping flesh,
That marks where my weakness,
My failures, pierced the hand
Of my precious Beloved Lord.

Love beyond grasp of mind,
Sacrifice firing the furnace
That consumes all;
Tremor of Love that
Shakes my soul.
Heart pressing against heart
Imprints forever
Your Sacrifice of Love
Upon all that I am.

My heart opens to,
My soul embraces
The overcoming Love
Of my Savior.
Softness of Love
Beyond comprehension
Transforms a tortured Body
Into a soft, tender holocaust of Love
On the altar of our hearts.

Your precious Wounds
Press against my soul.
My heart overflows with adoration
As I bend to kiss
The wounded feet of my Master.

Every tender Wound on Your Suffering Body
Churns my heart in its grasp of Love.
My heart a fountain of tender devotion
Longs to love with all I am
The tender, sweet Savior
Whose Heart pours forth in unearthly Love
And so silently, lovingly, sweetly accepts
Each piercing Wound
As if it were the kiss of Love.
So perfect this Savior’s Sacrifice,
His soft surrender in Love
Is seen as weakness
By those who fail to understand
The Love of the Beloved,
The Precious Life in death.

6/6-7/2001

Solitary Path

My Savior,
It was You who called me
To the crossroads.
Blinded with pain,
The fog of confusion surrounded me,
Yet I knew where I was.

I knew where You wanted me,
Though it cut through my heart
Like a knife.
I knew I could not turn away from You
Or what You were calling me to.

There at the crossroads,
The fresh pain of betrayal,
The emptiness of abandonment
Were upon me,
Yet my heart knew its anchor
And that it could not turn from You
And betray and abandon You.

The choice was clear and complete.
I would walk with You, my Savior,
Away from the crowd
Along the solitary path
Where You and I abide,
Silently speaking,
Touchlessly touching.

I walk the path of solitude
That sometimes crushes me,
Yet sometimes leads me
Into Your embrace.
You pick up the pieces
Of my shredded heart
Again and again.
You know so well
How to suffer alone.

Suffering Heart,
I cannot stop this pain of isolation
That cuts so deeply into my heart.
Yet I cannot stop the love
That brought me here
Through the crossroads.

Teach me, my Lord,
How to endure this exile.
Teach me the silent surrender
Of Your Suffering Heart.
As the solitary path
Carves its canyons into my soul
Where at times only my voice
Seems to echo back,
Whisper Your Presence in the wind
That reminds me of the Sacred Heart
That drew me here,
Away from all others,
Emptied and waiting
For You, O Sacred Heart,
The Heart I walk this path to meet
And embrace.

7/17-19/2001

Hearts Surrendered

Beloved, You come
As a ray of Light
Into my soul
That waits for only You.

Your strong hand
Lifts my heart to You
As my heart that anticipates
Your every move
Melts into Your Will,
Surrendering completely
To all You want of me.

Your Spirit breathes upon me
And like long grass in a field,
My soul moves gently and easily
To Your every movement upon me,
Thrilling to every breath, every Word
From Your Heart of Love.

You move so deeply
Into the very core of my soul.
Gathering all to Your Heart,
Making all I am,
Like a faithful spouse,
Responsive to Your every move,
Waiting upon Your every Word,
Listening for every breath,
Softening easily
Into Your arms of Love.

Your Voice moves my soul
Like gentle thunder
As You call me to be Yours.
Let go completely
And be all Mine,
You vibrate through
My willing heart.

This is My wedding feast,
I hear You whisper
As Your Heart consumes mine
And our mutual hungers
Are filled
In hearts surrendered
To Perfect Love.

6-29-2001

Longing of Hearts

Most Sacred Heart,
Your Spirit moves me
Stirring my soul to long for You.
My longing meets Yours
In a collision of hearts
Seeking one another
And in seeking, finding.
And in finding, desiring more!
Desiring a union so complete
There is no chance
Of losing one another ever again
For even an instant.

O Lord,
I hear You calling
From Your Cross.
My heart beats to Yours
As I hear the sounds of Calvary:
The sounds of Your breath,
Laboring for Love,
The sounds of their insults,
The sounds of Your silent moans,
The sounds of Your longing and searching,
The sighs of Your Sacred Heart.
Dear Jesus, I wonder,
If in Your human Heart, yet Divine,
When You called out to Your Father:
“Why have You forsaken Me?”
Did You long for a moment
For a human voice to answer:
“I am here.
I will not leave You.
You are all to me,
All I desire.
I will never leave You.”

In Your human Heart,
Could You understand
The longings and desires of ours?
Can You understand and love
The human desires
Of this heart and soul
In which You have divinely stirred
Such longings for You”

1-14-2001

Gaze of Love

Most precious Savior,
At the foot of Your Cross I crouch
Feeling so small in comparison
To Your Sacrifice of Love.
My eyes can barely reach Your feet,
Nailed down, that seep Your precious Blood,
Tearing, stretching in unbearable agony.
How can my heart bear to look further?
Yet my love for You raises my eyes and heart
To Your Body covered with Wounds,
Burning with pain beyond endurance.
You, most precious One, silently endure all.

My hands wish to cover Your Wounds
With a healing touch of love.
If only my love could take away Your pain!
My eyes, softly, longingly, raise to Yours
And I am confronted with Your Trance of Love.
Your eyes, trance-like from pain,
Yet hold a softness and a love
That floods through my heart,
Washing through my soul.

I am drawn in to Your Trance of Love,
Locked in to Your penetrating gaze.
This gaze of Divine Love, so intimate, so pure,
Yet embodied in a man so cruelly tortured to death,
Moves me to a love so bound to You
That nothing, even death, could unlock me
From Your penetrating gaze of Love in my soul.
Hold me in Your gaze of Love forever, my Savior.

3-12-2001