Small Heart

Sensing Your Presence
Like a delicate fragrance in the wind,
My soul moves to You
Like leaves in a gentle breeze,
And my heart seeks to find You.

Gathering my movement to Yourself,
You open the well-springs of my heart
That overflow, rising to meet You,
And my longing pours forth,
So is it consumed
In Your thirsting Heart.

There I am broken
Before Your Majestic Presence,
Crumbled into Your Heart and Your Will
To be consumed as Your bread,
Bread that feeds Your deep hunger for our love.

My heart knows only that it is Yours,
That Your immense Love
Includes a desire for this small heart.
My soul trembles with the knowledge
Of Your need for my smallness
And I give way to Your Will,
Your Grace, Your Majesty, Your Love,
As You take this dust of a heart
And breathe into it Your Life,
Creating it for You alone.

Rest in this heart made for You, my Lord.
Consume me in Your Love
That You may have all You desire
Of this small heart that is all Yours.

7-2-2001

Close To My Heart

Stones shift and fall,
Soon all of me is on the ground again.
Painfully humbling is this ground
And as I search for meaning from the dust
I feel Your hand slip into mine.
Your hand is so strong and steady
While mine is so weak and shaking.
Where am I, my Lord? I ask.

You are here with Me, You whisper.

But I am so vulnerable,
So exposed, so confused,
So in need of all You are.

I know, You console,
And I am here.
Born in a stable,
Crucified on a Cross,
My body has always been close
To those on the ground.
And My Heart is here always.

Your Heart moves upon mine,
Piercing with Thorns so deeply.
Come closer, You invite,
With great longing and gentleness
And my piercing finds its home
In Your Heart.

I am meek and humble of Heart,
Be here with Me in agony and neglect.
To find Me you must come close
To the Cross of humiliation
Where few wish to come.

But I await you here
With open arms; arms surrendered,
Forced open, nailed down,
Yet open still for your tender love.
Love Me here in the dust
As I long for you deeply.
Hold Me close,
Heart against Heart,
Where I will hold you, console you,
As the dust settles,
Close to My Heart.

6-9-2002

Winter Fields

Like the field turned over
And left with nothing
In the long, cold winter,
So my soul lies in wait,
Barren, with only dim light
Like an eclipse of the Son
Shielding You from my eyes.

I wait for Your warmth and Light
Through the cold darkness.
My earth that sprang forth with life
Has been turned over
And lies barren.

But in this time of rest
The seeds await
Buried deep in the darkness
Awaiting the Light
To set them free
And stir in them new life.

12/7-8/2009

Sacred Surrender

Precious Heart,
Sweet Fire of Love,
You overcome my soul
With Your powerful grace.
I fall to my knees
As the Fire of Your Sacred Heart
Descends upon me.
Seared to the core,
My heart is bared before You,
Fully revealed, fully opened
To the tenderness and wildness
Of Your Sacred Love.

My heart succumbs to Your
Tender Majesty
That wraps my soul in Your
Grip of Love.
Hold me, do not let me go,
For my soul is home
In Your irresistible grasp.

Your Heart succumbs to mine,
Releasing and surrendering
Your gift of majestic humility
Into the embrace
Of my willing and trembling heart.
I am Yours as you desire, completely,
You whisper, shaking my soul.
Consume this Heart with yours,
You pour into my soul,
Knowing my heart is powerless
To resist You.

You are safe in me
For I am Yours, as You desire, completely.
Consume my heart in Yours,
Beloved of my soul.
I surrender all to the fiery Refuge
Of Your Passionate Heart.
You ignite all of me
In this fireball of surrender,
Gathering the fire and trembling
Of my surrendering
Into Your Sacred Heart
As if drinking in my love
To finally satisfy Your Thirst.
Beloved, take all that You desire of me.

5/27-28/2001

Rest, My Love

Heart most Sacred,
As I dissolve in the gift of Your Love,
My heart and soul rise, suspended in Your grace,
To meet You, most Sacred Heart of my Beloved Jesus.

My soul, my Lord, left with no resistance anywhere,
Abandons all to Your passionate Heart
And lifts all to You.

Use me, O Lord, for Your Holy Desire.
Create in me all that would satisfy Your thirst,
That would meet the union You hunger for.
Draw from this heart and soul
The response You crave.

You draw upon every part of me,
O Savior of my soul,
Drawing all in a singular motion
To Your Sacred Heart.
I move all to You completely.
Like a sacred dance,
You move, I follow.

Exuding from this precious union,
A sweetest nectar of love
Pools in this blending of hearts,
And in this sacred pool is dissolves
The thorns of Your humiliation
That surrounded Your Heart,
Dissolved away in a love that adores You,
That worships You beyond ability to speak
Or even comprehend.
No longer thorns that pierce,
But love that washes away memory
Of abandonment and humiliation,
Overcome in the love You desire.

My Beloved, freed of binding thorns,
You abandon Your Wounded Heart
Into the reservoir of Love
Collected from Your Love and graces in my soul,
Sweetened with the tears of love and sacrifice
Offered to Your Wounded Heart.
You immerse Your Wounds
Into the bath of our united love.
Tears and wounds are knit together in our hearts.
And Your Heart, once wounded,
Receiving what It desires,
Seems, if possible, overcome in love,
Healed and comforted,
Immersed in what You long for.

You rest, my Beloved, as I,
Held in the embrace
Of Love fully longed for
And fully received.
Rest, my Love, in the heart
That longs always for Yours
And longs to fill Your hunger
And wash away Your memory
Of all pain and all rejection,
Lost in all love.

8-25-2001

As A Newborn

You come so softly, my Lord,
Taking my soul in Your hands.
As You breathe Your will upon me,
I become as a newborn in Your hands.
Strength not my own,
I am only able to form myself to You.
You move me as You wish
And I can do nothing without You.
I trust in Your every touch
Knowing I have no control over anything.
But abandoned to Your love,
I am Yours to move as You will.

Like a newborn,
You place me near Your Heart
And as I helplessly yet eagerly
Form myself to You,
I rest in the comfort of Your love,
Yet knowing this love that comforts me
Will ask of me everything.
As I abandon myself to you,
I beg for the grace
To never wish to take it back,
But to remain as helpless as a newborn
In the hands of my Beloved.

8-22-2001

Gathered Into My Heart

Rise from your prostration
And mount to My Cross, Beloved.
Embrace with love
My Heart spread out for you.
As the thorns entwine our love
And hold our hearts firmly
In our embrace,
So the world retreats
And we are one.
Hearts in communion,
Immune to death,
As thorns pierce
in a tender touch of love,
Spill forth their contents
And are taken up
In one Heartbeat of Love.

So I take you up
Gathered into My Heart.
Touch so pure,
Pain turned into delight,
Brokenness falls away
As hearts stirred to Life
Weld in Love
A singleness of Heart.

Pour out to Me your love
As I drink it up like wine
As the banquet of Love.
The taste of your love to Me
Is so sweetly intoxicating
My Heart moves, overflowing
In a fountain of Graces.
Your love is My delight.
As the Bridegroom searches out the Bride,
So I search out your love
Waiting to ambush your heart
And take you as My own.

Come, Beloved,
Into the arms that await you
And surrender to Me your heart.
Let me hold you as My own
Consumed in the eternal Fire
And sweetness of My Love,
Embracing the Sacrifice that binds
In eternal surrender
Our union of Hearts.

4-12-2001
Holy Thursday

Here In My Hand

Here in my hand
I hold Your Heart,
Given to me at great sacrifice.
Here in my hand lies the King of Kings,
Overwhelmingly Majestic in stunning humility.

Tender Savior,
Gift from the Heart of God,
You beg to be consumed,
To be so taken in
That You become one with us
In every cell, in every thought,
In the beating of our hearts
And each breath we take.

Here You must be, in everything,
Just as You are.

But we seldom see, hear,
Touch, love totally, as You long for.
Our thoughts turn so easily earthward
While You try so hard to lift us up
To You, O Master, Creator,
Lover of our souls, as You are
One with our bodies,
Part of every cell,
Food for the journey,
The journey to Your Heart,
That room prepared for us.

Love so dense it takes on form,
A form such that would break
So easily in our hands,
So You come, O Loved One,
In infinite humility and vulnerability,
Begging to be consumed
In a heart on fire with love,
Enraptured with Your touch,
With the power of Your grace,
With the tenderness and
Passionate trembling
Of Your precious Heart;
So I consume You
And make You my own,
My heart falling into Yours,
Where it longs to be,
Where You long to hold it
Captive to Your holy grace
And Your thunderously powerful,
Infinitely sweet Love.

Come, my Love, and consume me
As I consume You
And our hearts tremble into union
In the passionate Fire
Of Your most Sacred Love.

12-20-2003

Alone In Our Midst

I felt You walking
Through my town today.
So softly, gently You moved,
Looking for hearts to love You.
Many were there, in Your churches,
Worshipping You, it seemed,
But seemed to not see You
Or feel You deeply.
Doing the right thing, they thought,
By just being there;
Minds wandered
And soon were somewhere else.
How sad You seemed,
With Your people, in Your House,
Yet still alone.

I felt You walking
Through my town today.
Many were walking, playing,
Enjoying the beautiful day.
Yet You, O Lord of the Day,
Were walking alone, unseen, unfelt.
How sad You seemed,
With Your people,
In the beauty of Your Creation,
Yet still alone.

I felt You walking
Through my busy day today.
I yearned to be with You,
To be one with You,
Quietly listening,
Quietly loving.
I yearned for the noise
And busyness to be over,
To just be with You, lost in Your Love.
But as I looked upon
The beehive-like crowd,

I felt You standing
There in their midst
Quietly gazing upon me.
Silence descended amid chaos
And it was You and I,
Alone in the noise,
Motionless in the bustle,
Gazing upon one another
With yearning hearts,
Reaching for a deeper union
In the midst of it all.

2/24-25/2002

Love Invades

My heart cannot survive
The rain of Your Heart upon me.
Dissolving into Your Love,
Melting into Your embrace,
Nothing remains but You,
And I, lost in Your Love,
Revel in my nothingness in You.

For You, O Majestic One, own my soul.
And You, O Mighty One, gather my thoughts.
And You, O Passionate One, inflame my heart
And keep it on the hearth
Of Your passionate, most Sacred Heart.
You take control of everything I am
And place the Fountain of Your Heart
In the center of this garden,
My heart made for You.

I come to the Fountain
Where You wash away my failures,
Asking only for my love.
Deeply, Love invades the inner regions
Of my heart and soul,
Casting even my human heart
Into the cauldron of Your Love.
I am Yours, my Love,
Deeper than I even knew I was.
Your Life invades and I,
Surrendered to You,
A willing captive,
Rejoice in Your deeper conquests
And tighter bonds
Of my heart to Yours.

Nothing can stop You now
As You make my heart Yours.
Your embrace ever deeper,
The sweetness of Your Love
Like a delicate sting of prey,
Leaves me completely powerless to resist,
Overcome by the tenderness
Of Your Precious Heart of Love.

2-26-2001